yamanai ame da neeee

Jude.
Sunday, May 27, 2012

Passed away yesterday morning, 10.30am.
Here is what i remember of him:
- He was inspired to keep his long hair after seeing a scottish man running shirtless in freezing cold scottish weather, his long hair streaming in the wind behind him.
- He was going to open his own bakery, and I was going to barista for him.
- Good things are meant to be shared.

Look, I know i wasn't so close to him.. but the death of a young man is never easy.

10:02 PM

affirmation
Monday, May 21, 2012

In the past few days, I have affirmed certain beliefs about the world I've always held.
1. You should only travel with people whom you know very well, no compromises!
2. AMs really talk alot. Even when they have nothing to say, they just can't keep quiet.
3. Diablo will ALWAYS be great.

School: presentation on thursday. nervous. procrastinating cause i just don't feel like starting on the slides.....

8:54 PM

Thursday, May 10, 2012

I'm dreading the impending visitation of some people.............. omg.
Especially when they make it sound like they are doing me a favour.
问也没问，一声谢谢都没有。我没有要你来 OK.
oh well.

Exciting developments, ethics is back.. some minor changes to be made. It means we pretty much can start on our experimenting soon. omg nervous.

12:52 AM

Sunday, May 06, 2012

Tomorrow, I'm going on a fast. For health (not world peace).
Its considered a fake water diet since the internet says its dangerous to do a water diet all of a sudden.. So i've read up here and there.. and this is what my diet will consist of for tomorrow:
-Water
-Honey
-Tea
-Milk

Its supposed to be for 3 days.. if i was gna do a three day thing i'd add fruits in.. but thenz. IM WATCHING AVENGERS ON TUESDAY WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. so i will not let hunger distract me from the hotness of robert downey jr. plus, i wanna go to pancake parlour.

10:11 PM

life?
Saturday, May 05, 2012

Just now there was a blackout at our place. haha omg.. i went over to my friend's place and two of us sat in the torch light and look at each other. It was like, ........................ ok what should we do now?
We ended up making french toast HAHA! and just as we finished cooking, the whole place flooded with light again and two of us stood there and laughed like mad. omg damn funnyyyyyy. The whole blackout lasted 1.5hrs and wow once again, i'm reminded on how over reliant we are on technology.. life just gets impossible without electricity huh.

Anyway, recently i've been thinking.. 人真的很犯贱. always wanting what we can't have.. yearning for things just out of our grasps. We forget to appreciate what we have..
We have life, but we hope for death.
We have family and friends, but we hope for riches.
We have choices, but we hope we had less of them.
Is it because i'm inherently optimistic? or empathetic? When will we realise we can never have everything? and that, things are not how they are but how we choose perceive them?

I know all this is so cliche.. carpe diem, count your blessings... Why does life have to big a huge struggle? Struggle against human weaknesses, against societal rules.. against customs and culture..
I am glad to be alive.
I am glad I am chinese. A race that values family and sticking together. In america 50% of marriages end up in divorce. Why do so many of us wish to be more like them?
I am glad my family is intact. So what if just today, my sister tells me no one talks to each other at home. It is a flaw. People are flawed. No matter how broken we are, we are still whole. No one is cheating on each other, my dad doesn't hit my mum. No matter how much they argue, they are not 'staying together for the kids'. In moments of sentiment, my mum tells my dad.. don't die before me, because i won't know what i'll do. So what if they complain about each other? To be family, you basically have to have hated each other at one time of your life.
I am glad i have choices in life. I was talking to my friend about grad trips.. why is it some people are so troubled about the location they are going? I know so many people who have no friends to go with... or have no money to even go at all. Even then they make the best of it. Going to malaysia for the weekend is fun too, if you know how to have fun. If you're gonna be bitter about it, too bad for you. I know i am beyond lucky to have a chance to pick and choose about where i wanna go etc etc..

And lastly, I'm glad I have everything that I have now. When I wake up in the mornings, I wonder to myself, do others get to experience the magic of a cold, crisp morning?
Ahhh well.

12:14 AM